Saturday night at half 4 Wil calls me that Rogue already gave birth to 4 kittens. Of course on an impossible spot, so I put them in the box , and there was already number 5, and a half hour came later no. 6. Rogue didn't payed any attention to her, so I took her up, but she really wasn't good , there was almost no more lofe in her. And than I saw that her front feet weren't good, and her back neither. So I put her aside, and she died in a few minutes
When I examined the others as well, it seemed that at 2 others the front feet were curved as well. The feet had grown at the pulse to the back, O NO, this is no good, they never can't walk this way.
When I thought she was finished delivering, I went to bed for a few hours, and when I came downstairs there was another kitten born, with also his feets standing backwards, and had a couple nods in its tail.
I had a convention this weekend, so couldn't do much at it, so when I was there I rang the vet, and he confirmed what I feared, I had to put them asleep.
So when I came home saterdag night, we drove to the vet, and put them asleep. So what had to be a nice litter with 6 kittens, ended with 3, and I had to bury the other 4.
On top of all that I came awake Saturday morning with a lighting exactly under my scapula. I have this more often, but cannot remind it was this bad, I even had to cry from the pain, and ofcause all the other things happened
When I woke up this morning Rogue was lying near my bed, so I ran downstairs to look at the kittens, they were all cold, so I warmed a pitcher to warm them up, and gave them some food. I don't know how long she left them alone. When I came home tis evening, 1 of the kittens was lying on the cold floor, all cold and hardly alive. O no what a misery. So I rubbed her, to get her warm again, and warmed the pitcher and she slowly came to live a bit. Then I feed them, and put her with Rogue again, for a few hours I thought she would be fine, but when I look at her now, I don't think she is gonna make it till the morning.
So when I went downstairs at 2 AM, she already died, and we burried her tonight. Now 1 of the other 2 is doing bad, and not making it till the morning either. This is so hardbreaking, I feel so sad for the mother and the only girl left, I hope she is gonna make it.
I think I've cried for months the couple of days
I think it's so unfair to be born and than die so soon again, I can't imagine what the meaning is for that.